Saturday, November 14, 2009

When Medicine Makes You Worse Not Better

The past year has been both one of the most amazing and hardest years of my life. And I realized when I talked to my doctor last week that I have been getting worse not better with all the meds.

I reached a high point of 5 different medicines. Three I take everyday and 2 as needed. This is the most I've been on since I came out of psychosis 6 years ago.

We decided together that we need to re-evaluate. So I am getting off Abilify and Zoloft. Amazingly enough being on Lamictal, Abilify and Zoloft has made me MORE depressed not less.

In the two weeks since we started reducing my dose ... I feel amazing. Like the old Rachael.

Anyone else have a situation when you got worse not better on meds?

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Why the Mean Comments?

For the most part I love writing this blog. I wish I had time to do it more often. I get amazing feedback via email from women (and a couple men) about how my blog has helped them. Inspired them or made them feel just less alone.

And then there is this one:
"Odd that your IQ level is so high, but you don't know the difference between "to much" and "too much." Check the "Sleep Sleep Sleep" post at the top of the page."

Seriously ... I don't believe that I ever said on here that I had a high IQ (maybe I did but I doubt it). I write stream of consciousness and sometime I type too fast. Maybe instead of making a snide comment you could send a nice message like - "I was reading your blog and noticed a typo I wanted to bring to your attention: XYZ.:

This comment was left for me months ago and it still bothers me. So there it is ... if you don't have something nice to say, then don't say it all all.

I have put very vulnerable information out here on this blog. And to receive criticism about grammar is ridiculous. I would much rather read and email criticizing me as a mother than my grammar.

Soon I'll have some new posts about being a bipolar mom and issues with medications.

If you ever have a question ... drop me a line at bipolarpregnancy @ I am willing to help in whatever way I can.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Looking for Guest Bloggers

I'm looking for guest bloggers for both this site and my soon to be live site

Email me at bipolarpregnancy @ if interested.

If you have already emailed me I apologize for the delay I have spent the last several weeks in a severe depression. But I'm doing much better now.