Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Being a Good Mom (while having bipolar disorder)

Lately, I've been struggling with the concept of being a good mother. In the past few weeks, I have been rapid cycling between depression and hypomania. I feel like I can manage taking care of my daughter in the morning for a couple hours generally 7-10 a.m., but then I need someone else to take over or I start feeling overwhelmed and frustrated. By the evening my energy level has gone down a little and I can focus on her again.

I work from home so I do have a part-time nanny (15 hours a week). I also have a father-in-law who is retired and loves watching my daughter one to two days a week for three hours (in fact if we don't have him over he says he misses his granddaughter and wonders when he can see her.) My husband is self-employed so he watches or baby a couple hours a day while I work as well or run errands or do household chores. I am very fortunate to have so much help - especially in times like these.

But I keep feeling guilty and I don't know how to get rid of it.
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